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like a weed among weeds

Photo:  Pam White

Have You Ever Tried to Enter the Long Black Branches

Have you ever tried to enter the long black branches
of other lives –
tried to imagine what the crisp fringes, full of honey,
hanging
from the branches of the young locust trees, in early morning,
feel like?

Do you think this world was only an entertainment for you?

Never to enter the sea and notice how the water divides
with perfect courtesy, to let you in!
Never to lie down on the grass, as though you were the grass!
Never to leap to the air as you open your wings over
the dark acorn of your heart!

No wonder we hear, in your mournful voice, the complaint
that something is missing from your life!

Who can open the door who does not reach for the latch?
Who can travel the miles who does not put one foot
in front of the other, all attentive to what presents itself
continually?
Who will behold the inner chamber who has not observed
with admiration, even with rapture, the outer stone?

Well, there is time left –
fields everywhere invite you into them.

And who will care, who will chide you if you wander away
from wherever you are, to look for your soul?

Quickly, then, get up, put on your coat, leave your desk!

To put one’s foot into the door of the grass, which is
the mystery, which is death as well as life, and
not be afraid!

To set one’s foot in the door of death, and be overcome
with amazement!

To sit down in front of the weeds, and imagine
god the ten-fingered, sailing out of his house of straw,
nodding this way and that way, to the flowers of the
present hour,
to the song falling out of the mockingbird’s pink mouth,
to the tippets of the honeysuckle, that have opened

in the night

To sit down, like a weed among weeds, and rustle in the wind!

Listen, are you breathing just a little, and calling it a life?

While the soul, after all, is only a window,

and the opening of the window no more difficult
than the wakening from a little sleep.

Only last week I went out among the thorns and said
to the wild roses:
deny me not,
but suffer my devotion.
Then, all afternoon, I sat among them. Maybe

I even heard a curl or tow of music, damp and rouge red,
hurrying from their stubby buds, from their delicate watery bodies.

For how long will you continue to listen to those dark shouters,
caution and prudence?
Fall in! Fall in!

A woman standing in the weeds.
A small boat flounders in the deep waves, and what’s coming next
is coming with its own heave and grace.

Meanwhile, once in a while, I have chanced, among the quick things,
upon the immutable.
What more could one ask?

And I would touch the faces of the daises,
and I would bow down
to think about it.

That was then, which hasn’t ended yet.

Now the sun begins to swing down. Under the peach-light,
I cross the fields and the dunes, I follow the ocean’s edge.

I climb, I backtrack.
I float.
I ramble my way home.

 

Mary Oliver   West Wind:  Poems and Prose Poems

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wild and precise

I took this a few days ago on a misty morning.  I had gone out with my camera to hunt the light, which was burning through the maples outside our bedroom like a wildfire.

I like it because it captures something that i am in pursuit of these days.  The wild and the precise.  I want to see if they can co-exist in the same moment. Exuberance and detail.  Creative risk and specificity.  A leap of faith and a clean landing. Exciting and clear.

If you are selling something – a service, a product, a performance – I think that is what works.  The feeling that the person making the offering has found that heady mix of wild and precise.

Being conscious and embodied is one path to that mix.  When you can make a big move and stay aware of all the parts of it, you are on your way.

see you soon

I will be away for the next several days.  My nephew is getting married in Barbados. At first I wasn’t going to go.  It seemed like an impossible extravagance, which I ultimately decided was a good reason to go.  Plus, it’s family.  That’s what my brother-in-law, the very busy lawyer said when he dropped his schedule to come to my daughter’s hastily arranged wedding this summer.  “It’s family.”  So Pam and I will be there.

Also, this is balm for the part of me that hates seeing the end of summer, of swimming, of t-shirts and early morning tea on the terrace.  I am not a big fan of season change.  I know that is blasphemous to hard core Northeasterners.  I grew up in Minnesota, so I know from season change.  What I want is the politics and culture of the Northeast and the climate of St. Barth.  Oh well.  So this let’s me have a little moment of reprieve.  Bare feet, warm water.  See you next week!